This is the third time I am trying to write this, but I have no idea how to begin. It’s funny how in general, the hardest part is to begin something. I think it’s true for everything we do, not just writing.
In the past weeks I finished my Cardiology rotation. I haven’t been doing great in the exam because I haven’t studied enough, fortunately I passed it and I will be able to re-take the exam in the fall for a grade raise.
Also, I started my General Surgery rotation. I had the bad luck to end up in a hospital where we don’t do much. Basically they force us to be here at 8am and leave at 2pm, but we just sit in an amphitheatre and do nothing. It’s frustrating because we just waste time. Also, getting here is very hard for me. The hospital is in the other side of the city from my apartment and it takes an hour and a half to get here. It’s exhausting and I have no motivation to come here because I know I will do nothing.
As for myself, I started doing other things than school. I started going to conferences, workshops, going to the movies etc. Basically I am getting my life back, because since I had my panic attacks I decided I will take a break from everything and focus on me getting confident enough and comfortable with doing anything. Now I feel ready, therapy really helped me and I am starting to feel much better.
It’s been a long way until I could be myself again. I don’t regret that anxiety and panic attacks have happened to me, because they taught me that something was wrong in my life and I needed a change. Also I learned that I don’t have to do the changes all at once, I have to take little steps, but steady ones. It’s a lot of work and I have to be patient, but I know that a I will manage to change my life for the good.
As for the website, I have some free time this weekend and I want to dedicate it to working on updates. Do some updates and offer more free content. Maybe, even writing some tutorials and create some free themes.
On monday I went and taken my driving licence theoretical exam. I scored 25 out of 26. The practical exam will be on June 6th. I hope I will do good then.
Also this week I saw some TV shows, since I had a lot of free time at school. I’ve seen Stranger Things, The Night Manager, Chicago Med and today I started Taboo. I totally recommend all of them. They are very good TV shows, especially Stranger Things.
Until this weekend I wish you well. I hope you had a good week and take care of you 💓💕💖💓!