I know I had a pretty long absence from my blog, but trust me I had reason. Since the last time I blogged I’ve been constantly sick. It was awful.
First it started with my cold, which made me stay in bed for almost a week. I was supposed to be studying, but I couldn’t. After that, I had a panic attack. It was my first one. I never felt something this awful in my entire life. When it happened I was in the subway, then I had to take the bus. I was all alone in he middle of the street and I was terrified. I managed to get home, after going to a pharmacy where they gave me calcium with magnesium and zinc. After that I went to see two psychiatrists and the second one game me some anxiolytic medicine. I started feeling better after 2-3 days, but I still had the sensation that I can’t do anything anymore and I had a constant fear of everything. Day by day these feelings went away. I am a lot better now. Long live drugs. After this I had a cold again. My throat hurt so bad that I couldn’t talk. I started taking antibiotics again(different kind that the first ones). At this moment I am way better. My cold is almost gone, my anxiety is under control. My confidence in myself came back and I feel again that I can anything. I am so happy that my problems went away. These past two weeks were awful, and I lost a lot of time. Now I have three exams next week and I have no idea how I am going to get high grades, because I just couldn’t study. I will try my best, but I am the kind of person that thinks you get what you work for. So since my effort is almost zero I am not so sure that I will succeed. At least I am going to try.
What this past weeks taught me, especially the panic attack, was to take better care of myself. Apparently no matter if I am young, I am not invincible. So I slept more, I tried to relax and take it easy, I tried to eat healthier and take some time for myself. It’s really important now to be as careful as I can, because my health is the most important thing.
Now I am going to focus on my exams. I have a week to save my school situation. Maybe I will succeed, maybe I will not, but I am going to try. I am not giving up yet. As for the website, I have a to do list of updates, and I can’t wait to start working on them. I miss doing graphics and updates for this website, but now I have other priorities.
I hope you are OK. I miss visiting your websites, but I am not gone forever. I will be back at the end of next week and then I can admire your amazing work. Take care of you and talk to you soon.